Yet the Sea Is Not Full
Brad Green
into this house horrible with curves. To even move her arm through the
air requires immense effort. Her feet now bare and tucked under, knees
shining in the bodiless light. A small, round table between them. Wine
and cheese perhaps if they tend toward the aristocratic, otherwise
stringy pizza in a box. Shes certain hell have the wine regardless.
Her eyes blink and remain closed. Shes nearing the last days of her
youth, after all, and it would be too much to expect a teenage
optimism from her for shes seen him drunk on the floor, the black
hair on his thighs snarled and grotesque. He assumes that shape more
often now, that chalk outline her father occupied. How long had it
been since she stood nude in front of a window, unashamed in that
yellow square of sun, waiting for him? That light so different than
the blue shade in which she now huddles. Her breasts are like fruit
too long on the counter and she washes her hair every other day in a
cloud of steam, wraps it behind her with a soft, orange wire.
~
Shes been shrinking for months and he cant figure out why. Hes
ecstatic with the blue newness of the room, the absence of angles.
Such hard lines predetermine whereas a curve slopes into the unknown.
To see her uncurl causes a hollow bird to flutter in his throat and
its that perspective he searches out, but has trouble finding. She
looks best to him off-angle or from behind. He enjoys finding her
unaware, her breath soft, the ligature in her shoulders arced and not
taut. When she doesnt notice him, his chest unlatches and flows at
the truth in her position as if hes listening to her pee in the
toilet for the first time. Hes secretly taking Cialis, shearing the
tablets into fourths to swallow every day. His skin is dry and feels
large on him, as if hes not yet fully into his form. Last week he had
a dream in which she was folded and pressed as a new shirt and they
argued when he tried to pull out the pins. When he walks through a
room, hes conscious of juts and corners, rarely stubs his toe, is
horrified of bumping into someone. He cant bear to look at her
full-on. Not anymore. Her face terrifies him with angles.
~
The curtains that shes chosen for their new house cast a blue ache
and that light is relentless against her closed eyes. There will be a
moment, sometime later, where night will rise and theyll become
frantic. Theyll fall upon one another and pant like children tackling
a beach ball. Her eyes will brighten as her mouth apples into a laugh.
Hell lay his hands upon her so she swells into his palms. But itll
be a terrible bliss. Oh God, Oh God, theyll say, how do we escape
this?
~
If they had it, the cheese will harden and tan on the table. Perhaps
itll be the pizza that ghosts out its grease into the cardboard.
Possibility abounds, but still her eyes remain closed. In a room with
no corners, each direction flows back to the source. Its petrifying
and hopeless. If she refuses to move, she wonders if shell regain all
that was lost. Perhaps a breeze irritates the wine to ripple. Perhaps
she opens her eyes to see the red body of wine settle to its natural
state, a placid depth curving into the bottom of the glass the way a
tortoise shell arches over a soft inside. Perhaps she opens her eyes
to him on the floor again, coiled into drunken oblivion. Perhaps she
snaps a chalk line across the room, some straight line to which she
can hold, something closed and known. Perhaps she razors a wound
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